OOPs .....DY I am sorry you took that as me saying you shouldn't be here . Not what I meant ,really . I just was trying to understand how your experience is so different than mine . We noticed the mid-west congregations (especially small ones ) were much more strict and into everyones personal business than large coastal cities .
I went back and read some of your early posts .You have been around here a very long time . Then you took a break and came back again . It has to be hard to be married to an active spouse and yet have dep down doubts about the religion . I assume you are trying to come to terms with your own cognitive dissonance ,and that's cool . We all are learning at different speeds and have different circumstances .
No kidding ...it must be very hard on your conscience to come here and post when you are still struggling with not wanting to believe the Society is wrong . I get it .
Didn't mean to step on your toes there . DO what you got to do .....